Dancing Queen...i'm not it.
I went out with some friends last night and i did have quite a good time. no drinking involved but lots of chatting did. i was on my feet from 9.30pm till 2am in the morning. the place was packed! no seats were seen anywhere near us.
So here comes the other thing(s) that happened last night. The crowd at that place was full of expats and SPGs, lots of men that looked at least 5-7 years older than me. Miss L asked some friends along...guys of course, but they were not my type. they seemed alot older, talked abt topics that i wasn't too keen. tried to be interested abt my life, but i somehow felt that everything was kindda shallow.
One of then that i did mange to have an okay conversation with, he kept asking me" are you sure you are 156cm tall?" i mean... what are you laughing abt? am i too short? or do i noe seem as tall as i say i am? i don't quite understand what his obsession with my height was all abt...silly man.
Someone nearly bought us a drink..."sorry...not interested uncle".
I have also realised that i don't need alcohol to start "dancing". as some may know, i am not...seriously... not good at dancing. i remembered that fateful time where i busted out a move during worship at Kraaifontein and ryan laughed so hard at what i did. Shame was what i felt n i told myself that i would never bust a move infront of him any more.
So...back to my dance...i did...kindda dance. with lots of swaying from side to side, but my friends could care less what i did and that mede me feel at home. I am glad that perth has helped me bring out this side of me that i never thought i had.
Am i a dancing queen...erm...lets just say that i am not quite there yet. :)
consuming fire fan into flames
Luanie_____shone with a magical smile
12:49 PM
Monday, June 08, 2009
And to think that i am still single...
i was at a FNM at the YWAM base at perth when this incident happened. as not many singaporeans pass by this place, so whenever i hear someone introducing themselves as a singaporean, i just wanna go n say hi.
So it happened last friday that i heard someone introducing himself as a singaporean, i thought that he was that friend who gave me so many tips about what to bring and what to expect for DTS, tt added to my excitement to meet him. Because he was seated at the other end of the room i had to wait till the meeting ended, then i went up to him to say hi. at close range, he didn't seem as tall as i thought he would be and he doesn't look like that friend who gave me tips. but since i was there...in all singaporean friendliness, i went u to him n said hi. but after a while i was at a lost at what else to add into the conversation. i must say that i was really glad tt the potato chips came in to save the day for me.
so i was about to leave when he suggested that we exchange numbers. As i was using a pre paid card, i had to scroll through a whole load of sms b4 i could find my number. and i was verbally saying this to him when he replied, "It's more important that you have my number."....WHAT!!!!!! i was seriously freaked out. i gave him a miss call and ended the conversation quickly and thank God that my number will expire when i am in south africa...Yes! :) Amen!
consuming fire fan into flames
Luanie_____shone with a magical smile
3:44 PM
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
What do you see?
I see dead pple....no lah...hee hee...i see visions.
ever since i got to perth, the visions just kept coming. during worship, during prayer, in my dreams. some of it was for me n others was for pple around me. it doesn't take too much effort, all i hv to be is ready for God to speak/reveal.
i have also been able to hear God. it isn't like an audible voice, but it comes more like a thought. i think tt this week's lectures r great. talking abt intercession n worship. yesterday, i learnt not to doubt the things tt i hear, check if it's in line wif what God says He is and then take action/believe/trust Him for what He has said.
And according to stats frm me counting wif my fingers, in my class of 23, there r 5-6 pple tt hv tt gift too! :)
What can i say...God is just so awesome! :)
What do u see today?
consuming fire fan into flames
Luanie_____shone with a magical smile
4:06 PM
Friday, March 27, 2009
6 more days...
i am leaving...n that is a fact...as much as some parts of me wish tt i don't have to leave, many other parts want to fly over to perth right now. i think tt i am more excited than anything.
i am not done wif packing...hv countless of pple tt wanna spend time wif me...finding it hard to let go of the responsibilities at work...beating myself up over things tt i shldn't be worrying abt.
What will i miss here...hving a steady income is one...being able to tell pple "see u tmr/next week"...going for pcg(both the older ones n the younger ones)...hving the convenience of doing nothing at home...knowing my surroundings...going to work.
but yet when i do pause for a moment in this time of hussle n bussle, i do feel kindda sad. i am not gd at gd byes...not gd at comforting others tt i will be alright when i am not even sure of it myself...crying over the smallest of issues.
in all of these mixed feeling, the 1 thing tt has ben a constant is God's reassurance. His undying love, His unending kindness, so full of gentleness. as much as i don't see Him physically, i know tt He is here wif me. :)
consuming fire fan into flames
Luanie_____shone with a magical smile
12:29 AM
Friday, March 13, 2009
Clearing up things...
the count down has begun and it is 20 more days before i leave for perth. decided to take my off day today to be clearing up my study room table. then when i got to the drawers, i was trying my best to pack it nicely...it looks kindda neat until i reached drawer 3. it's the one filled wif letters and card frm friends and family. as i thot tt i wanted to clear thing out of there, it quickly turned to: hmmm...how shld i sort them into piles.....to: ok, i will leave it alone.
each letter was marked with the feeling and thots of things tt loved ones wanted to say to me. many were well wishes, and some almost brought tears to my eyes. i will miss Drawer 3 while i am away. it's the place i go to where everything is encouraging, everything is sweet, everything brings back a certain memory.
reading thru them i saw a part of my life flash past, whatever time that card or letter was written at. i am glad that i am not at that point in my life when the card/letter was written in, i am glad to be beyond and hv matured (in a tiny bit).
As much as it was a bitter sweet experience, i have to close the drawer n come back to reality of where i am today. But 1 thing is for sure, i know where to go when i need some love. :)
consuming fire fan into flames
Luanie_____shone with a magical smile
3:51 PM
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
I'm leaving on a jet plane....
yes i am...or rather i will soon be leaving. DTS has replied n i am abit closer to perth. 38 more days to go. i am truely excited. i wish wendy was here to be excited wif me, after all, she was the one who suggested for me to go. :) i am just so amazed at how God allowed all these amazing things to happen all at one go. i hope that this part of my life story will one day be an inspiration to someone to dare to trust God and go against what the world tells us. :) He gave me strength when i was weak, He provided me a "cow" for my needs, He ever so lovingly reassured me tt he holds the plans He has for my life in His hands. He is my God, why shld i be in doubt. I trust u wholeheartedly.
consuming fire fan into flames
Luanie_____shone with a magical smile
8:06 PM