Tuesday, February 14, 2006
WORK....Work.....and more work
I am enjoying my off day today, after all i have been working non-stop for the past 6 days. i couldn't even go to church lah. it was afternoon, morning, afternoon. morning, afternoon, morning shifts for the past 6 days. glad to have caught some beauty sleep last night, it was most needed.
Found out tt i am ging to start on call soon. it means that i will have to work from 12pm-10pm, stay in the hospital frm 10pm-7am, if there are emergency ops to be done, me and my staff nurse (sn) will have to sacrifice sleep for it,and we end off with a morning shift from 7am-2/3pm. That is more than 24hrs at work. when i 1st realised it was when my sn told me that my nuese manager(nm) asked her if she could work with me for my 1st call(they call it the virgin call). My sn ame to ask me what are the types of emergency ops tt i have learnt. as her list became longr and longer, i felt my confidence just left me. i started to be paranoid and afraid of what is to come. i didn't want to cause anyone trouble u know. even when my other co-worker were reassuring me that everything will be alright, nothing tt they said went into my head. the resposibility was pilling up, feel like i can't take it. i wanted to back out. i wished tt i was still a student or tt i didn't even join nursing in the 1st place. God knew all these will bother me, and with His still small voice he comforted me. He allowed me to realise tt this is all part of His plan. now i can even reassuer my sn tt there is nothing to worry abt.
Lets get back to the virgin call thingy. pple at work are ever so eager to find out if u r jinx. they conclude that through the virgin "whatever", it can be a call, a night shift or just u taking over a job tt someone else was doing (eg. being the receptionist for a day), through tt they will know if u r jinx or not. for example, snA is on her 1st night shift in ot. then throughout the night the emergency cases keep coming until the next morning, with no sleep or rest. for tt, pple will label u jinx of the night shift. i don't believe that there is such thing as luck, so even if there happens to be many cases, i always think tt God must be allowing it to teach us to be better at our work. it is hard not to be affected by what pple say, but my God is a God of eternity and He watches over everything tt i do. i trust in Him and His plans.
Our God is an awesome God
He regins, from heaven and earth
With wisdom power and love
Our God is an awesome God
consuming fire fan into flames
Luanie_____shone with a magical smile
10:14 AM