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everything.
people tt talk alot.
pink stuff.
Point of Grace.
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offals of animals.
things that smell bad.
pig's liver.
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
Hey there! :)
I have not been blogging for a very long time. thought to myself tt i can tell pple what i am going thru personally or over the phone, so there's no need to blog abt it. But being the dear old me, i can't keep things to myself, i mean my own things not other pple's secrets ok...so here's wat's been happening.
I fell into satan's trap again...felt totally horrible abt myself...felt like a s..., for i know tt God didn't create me to be living like this. Felt so guilty, so ashamed, but i also knew tt i needed to face the music. I confessed my sin to my mentor...cried alot as the memories flooded in. Jesus help me get thru this...I always knew tt God knows what's best for me and His plans are far greater than mine. It was time to be transparent...i had to tell my 3 best friends. I thiught tt i could run away from the topic, but it was not to be so. some understood wat i went thru and others empathised. I really appreciate all of u for not judging me and continuing to love me dispite my flaws. i love u guys so very much! Temptation didn't stop there, it came as and when it liked, but the words tt my gals told me and with the Holy Spirit promptings i learn how to over come them 1 at a time.
God also have been teaching to be intentional following up with pple. Have u ever had a strong feeling tt u need to talk to someone or that u can see it in their body language tt they need to be cared for? i get tt often. God will place pple in whom i am close withor pple in whom i have had contact with into mind. i know tt He wants me to talk to them and find out how they are, but i was just too lazy to obey. bcoz of that, i have missed out on many opportunity to bring pple to know abt the love Jesus has for them. God convicted me to be intentional, not to miss any opportunity to lend a listening ear, give a hug or speak encouraging words. Itis the small things that count and i have been trying.
Tiredness from my bz night shifts has had me lying on my bed asleep for more than 10 hrs each time. I have missed out on meeting vincent and carene for dinner and pcg so far. Fatigue has had be paralysed and made me lie"dead" on my bed. Ever time i have a bz night, the next day i will feel like i just had an "all night long" at youth camp when i was still a teenager. my eyes can barely open n my legs feel like it is going to give way anytime. pls pray for me that God will restore strength. That's all for now, till next time! :)