Saturday, October 21, 2006

I write this feeling abit sad. i have lost something that i hold so dear n there is no way i can keep it. i am sad coz i have had so many memories with it and now it will juz be memories n nothing else. i am praying n asking God to show me wat i should decide for the situation at hand. my heart feels so sad but yet i cannot cry. it seems as though like my resevoir of tears have dried up. i seem to see the happy times tt we shared at every corner i turn to. i can't help but juz smile weakly at it coz i no longer own it. God has been good these past few wks n He has been there wif me thru this difficult time. eventhough my mind cannot comprehend wat is happening, i believe n place all my trust in Him who is unchanging. QT materials for the past 2 wks have been targeting at the core of what i am going thru. i can't help but juz end up at the point of surrendering it to God. wish i could kick n fuss n have things done my way. i thank God too for the frens tt have come to comfort. all your love and care and views have been very precious to me. u guys have helped me see things from an outsider view n to point upwards to God who is the creator of all things. i cannot deny tt there are things tt u guys have said tt i find hard to swallow...pls give me time to digest. i will be strong n courageous n be single minded to run after the ultimate prize. i admit tt i am partly to be blamed for what has happened. i am sensing tt God wats me to be a whole by myself in Him 1st. i will let go if u help me to, i will let go if tt is wat God wants me to do, i will obey at all cost for His ways are higher than my ways. There is a time n place for everything.

Trust, trust in the Lord
Lean not on your own understanding
In all, all of your ways acknowledge Him
He'll make your path stright

consuming fire fan into flames

Luanie_____shone with a magical smile
1:51 PM