Sunday, February 25, 2007

EMOTIONS

am feeling very emotional these few weeks. i cry super easily n whenever i think abt the past of when i was a drama serial tt i very sad or a smell of something evokes memories. don't really wanna be like this but i can't really help it right now. i might seem alright infront of others, but when i am alone, doubtful thoughts will start to fill my mind.

i have been too close to a fren. don't want to be a stumbling block esp when i am not in the best of conditions. sensed tt God wanted me to state to him my views and all that has been on my mind. so i plucked up my courage n msged him. wanted to eat some of it back when i started to rationalise. the Holy Spirit was quick to pick up on tt n things are still under control...now...

scrubed for a rather "poor thing case". when i left work, i saw the girl tt my fren was going to pick up n felt sad for myself...felt like an idiot...why r u upset over something tt doesn't belong to u. tried not to look up incase i spotted his car. started to write in my journal n listening to my nano at the same time. heard the song"I will be here"...wah....lau...s**t...why now? why today? when i am super sian n sad, i have to be reminded of u. felt super lonely n juz in need of a shoulder to cry on. closed my eyes to try n settle tt emotion n tears juz rolled out of my eyes. daddy asked wat was wrong when i got into the car, but i kept silent. don't think tt he will understand. couldn't stop crying wif all tt was happening.

am still feeling abit sad now...but i think tt it will pass. as long as i keep submitting it to HIM.

Jesus, be the center
Be my source be my light
Jesus

consuming fire fan into flames

Luanie_____shone with a magical smile
4:59 PM