Wednesday, August 29, 2007

Feeling Gloomy...

I feel quite down n out. feel tt there is no one i can share my woes to...no one will ever understand what exactly is happening inside. i mean, i can share with anyone out there wat happened, but to have someone understand n feel what u feel, tt is tough to find.

I hasn't exactly been a great day today...many ups n downs...all within a day. i am trying Lord, but no matter how hard i try i juz doesn't seem to be pleasing. am i juz very bad at this whole thing? maybe it is time to leave soon. maybe it is the object in which i am trying to please, or could it be that i am juz afraid to stand firm? i don't really know...i am so confused.

pple's impression of things usually all happen in a flash. what u percieve of someone or something, determined, juz like tt. i was a tad bit paranoid over some comment tt pple made over my dept, n i decided to take things under my own hands. my behavoiur today was really unlike me.i was too peroccupied to try n reduce the workload of someone, so tt ple won't say tt we bully her. i wasted to be nice to her by nt letting her do too much work n at the same time, show others tt we r nice pple, n did nt bully her. my actions were interpreted wrongly n my colleague thot tt i thot tt i was implying tt she was bullying the newbie, which was obviously not the case. we want her to take more cases so tt she will be better perpared for her shifts. sian man...my colleague "black" face at me for a while.

what i need now is a listening ear, a shoulder to lean on, a place to hide in total silence, there is no place for words right now.

consuming fire fan into flames

Luanie_____shone with a magical smile
11:43 PM