Tuesday, September 11, 2007
SORE THROAT....Ahem...cough...kaaapui...spit
yup, u r right, i am suffering from a very, i repeat VERY bad sore throat. it didn't help tt until now, it has been there for more than a week. it is getting better i must say, but to also wake up every morning wondering how come tt funny feeling down at my throat is not gone yet.
But then i learnt over the weekend to....GIVE THANKS in all things. both the gd and the bad. i juz came back frm YMLC. was away from home for 5 days lah...but tt's including doing a call b4 going for the conference. think my parents sorta miss me...haha! :)
aniwae, i have come to realise tt God purposely didn't heal me immediately for His own reason. but this is what my small n non-infinate minde could conjur up. here's some background. i went to the conference as a mentor to a gp of 9 pple who are much older than me. their age range was 26-31. n me? i am 23 only. fear was not the only thing on my mind. you know, at such christian conference, u have to be close to God n prepare my heart to what He might want to use me to teach them. but the thot of inferiority was always there. they are older leh, they will know more than i do. i am very thankful to God tt my whole gp turned out to be really great. they were open, the were fun loving n were super enthu when it came to games. :)
it wasn't until the last day and after what my gp members told me, tt i realised tt God was using me to touch their hearts. many of them were 1st timers n were just as afraid of the gp members. they identified tt i had the gift of hospitality. now reflecting back, i think i do. due to the fact tt i couldn't talk properly, i decided to love them practically. i bought them sweets n packed them nicely in envelopes, hoping tt they will eat them n nt fall asleep during the talks. i took cakes for all to share on the 1st day, n other in the gp members follow suit at all the other meals we had together. i brought all my writting materials(cards n colourful pens) for them to write to each other on the last day when i tasked them to pair up n share abt 1 thanksgiving, 1 struggle n 1 thing tt they learnt frm the conference. it all turned out great! :) i guess being a leader is a job tt is not only meant for the strong. it is written in the bible tt God uses the weak to shame the strong.
this was 1 opportunity tt everyone in my gp agreed in unison tt my name, JOY, personified me. eventhough i was sick, i kept on laughing non stop, they felt tt i brought joy to them wif my presence n patted me on my back,telling me tt i have been a great mentor.
things wld nt have been so smooth also if nt for the Pastor mentor tt i had. he is 1 really funny guy. but yet at times u could see his serious side. the way he shares makes u wanna listen to him. the doesn't force his views on u, but he is firm on wat he stands for. he takes the time to listen n understand. wish tt he was my dad. :)
Overall,it was a great conference for me, it was no burning bush experience, but i did meet God. :)
consuming fire fan into flames
Luanie_____shone with a magical smile
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