[[likes]]
everything.
people tt talk alot.
pink stuff.
Point of Grace.
[[hates]]
offals of animals.
things that smell bad.
pig's liver.
Sunday, October 07, 2007
Staring Anew...am i able to?
I has been almost a year since that fateful day. outwardly i seem to have moved on, but somehow the ghost of th r/s still haunts me.
maybe it's coz the monthly visit frm the "aunt" is coming or it could be tt i am still sort of holding on to the memories.
felt super sad and very affected the other day, so i did a drastic move. i tore up all the notes, letters and smses tt i wrote down on a bk, tore up all the photos tt we took together. vividly remembering the moments shared. seeing when it all started.
i stared asking myself, maybe it was a wrong choice after all. many problems arised during the 3yrs tt we were together, plus the fact tt we were sturggling with sins in our life. maybe i should have waited for Mr Right n nt jump the gun n started wif Mr Left. but on the hindside i knew tt i wanted to try my very best to keep thing gd, n no matter how hard things became i kept telling myself tt it will be better.
tearing all those precious things up, meant tt they, from tt moment on, never existed. nothing tt the "ghost" tries to bring up can tear me down.
i started to feel thankful then, thankful tt i still had a life, not all is lost. i managed to stand up on my own 2 feet, thankful tt i have managed to let the heart of God moved my heart for the youths tt i look after in church. i am also able to feel free to make arangement to travel or jump into project tt will take up lots of my time.