Tuesday, November 20, 2007
Going back to work...
i have been almost away frm work for abt 3 wks n going back to work yest was overwhealming. my legs don't seem to be able to hold up like it use to, my positive outlook at things almost seem to have returned to where it was b4 i went away frm work, at a very low level. i find myself being snappy at colleagues n drs at work. i am already trying. trying to adapt back frm all the rest and sadness. but somehow it doesn't seem to have left me. i still think of the holiday tt i took wif emily to taiwan, missing grandpa, recalling the whole funeral thing, the ortho conference tt i went last wk.
as i reflect back on it, i can safely say, frm the bottom of my heart, at the apex area, tt i am trying my best. i miss tea break not only coz i didn't buy breakfast n also wasn't hungry, but it was also for the smooth running of the cases. it is always better to hv an extra pair of hands to help. i was both the circulating nurse n the attendant. even as the timing for my duty came to an end but the list had yet to be finished, i will and did gladly stay back. my face could have seem unhappy, but tt was nt the case. i was juz tired frm all the runnin up n down the whole day. i don't need to be recognised, i juz wanna b of help. if everyone did what they were suppose to to, maybe all of us won't be so tired. having all these said n done, the undelying theme is tt i am adjusting...just adjusting.
consuming fire fan into flames
Luanie_____shone with a magical smile
1:21 AM