Thursday, December 13, 2007
Where are you?
i find mysself asking this question very often. more to myself, as if God was the one asking me this question.
You know how u are suppose to be transformed into something new when u became a Christian, but somehow tt transformation doesn't last very long. u morph again and become somthing tt u wish u weren't.
2 headed is what i am. i tell pple in church tt u shd do this n be like tt, but who am i to tell them such things when i am not even close to God. i don't read my bible daily, i don't pray daily. i look back at how things have become, i feel ashamed n even hypocritical to act like holy. infront of others i can pretend to be who i think i am, but when u r infront of God, nothing escapes His eyes.
He see thru u, ur sins will litearlly set fire to ur soul. u feel worthless n wished tt everything could be much better....wif all the "If only...", but is tt how God has made u to be?
i struggle alot. wrking hrs n the fatigue tt comes wif it, juz drags me down. i wish no more to juz sit infront of my tv n waste my time away. i tell myself tt i hv no time for God coz i need time for myself. who am i to kidd when eventually, i realise tt i am NOTHING...without Him.
Jaime understands n reminded me tt i shldn't dwell in this hole n keep digging deeper into it. Lies, deception n excuses tt i make up or tt the evil one implants into my mind will nv stop bombarding. but what is important is to practice the presence of God. to remind myself tt God is there, God is in control, God understands and most importantly, tt God loves. it is never easy to do it alone, so jaime also suggested tt we take turns to remind each other abt the presence of God n reaffirm our love for Him.
And as this verse says: "Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honourable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things." Philippians 4:8
i guess tt is why it is important for all christians to be involve in a church. you need all the support tt u can get.
You are the apple of God's eye.
consuming fire fan into flames
Luanie_____shone with a magical smile
5:26 PM