Wednesday, January 09, 2008
These few days...
has been very trying. it all stared on sun when i was juz driving out of the lot. i cannot imagin tt i watch it all happen infront of my eyes. i scratched someone else's car. decided to drive off, more afraid abt my car rather than the car tt i scratched. kept wondering to myself what can i di abt the scratch on my rented car. crap. kept going ard to find solutions nsolace in the advice of my frens. i kept my conscience at an all time low. it wasn't until i told wendy abt it tt pangs of guilt hit me really hard. i made a mistake n did not own up to it.
everyone else at work thot tt it was silly n even foolish of me to have written a not to apologise n left my hp num on it, wanting to compensate the driver. but as a child of God tt is the RIGHT thing to do. it isn't abt being foolish n trying to pretend tt it didn't happen by polishing away the scratches on my car. it was abt intrgrity. i lacked tt in the spur of the moment. i can juz imagin how mad the other driver wld have been if i didn't own up. wishing tt he wouldn't call didn't fall through. he did. i was ver apologetic n kept saying sorry. the victim on the other end was the cool n calm one. he was ver reassuring n kept telling me to not worry n have a gd night's rest. as of this moment, everything is settled.
daddy sounded calm over the phone n was some what reassuring. i din't expect to get a whole lot of chiding frm him while he polished my car. as a parent tt is what u want to do, protect ur children. i am sure he must have been very worried for me and all tt he had said, eventhough it was very stern, i know he had my interest at heart.
Work on the other hand truned worse on tuesday. when i suddenly realise tt i can trust no one frm the mamagement team except myself. things tt i have been reassured abt, was done in fact was not done. making me the person to bear the black pot. my morning nurses tt came on duty were upset tt no one informed them abt the major case. i felt super bad tt i didn't tell them. i shld have trusted my instincts n informed them. i was foolish in believeing tt my butt will be covered by the higher authority. everything became a whole mess. the moral of the story is...cover ur butt at ALL times. eventhough u might be repeating things 2 or even 3 times...do it coz it will save u ALOT of trouble in the days to come. man...sometimes i juz hate working.
consuming fire fan into flames
Luanie_____shone with a magical smile
8:50 PM